Finally,

Back from the dead.

My goodness, so much has been going on lately. My mind is completely twisted, like a lemon iced tea.

So I now have a wonderful girlfriend, and have begun being open about the fact that I like women. But lately I've been super stressed. Got a new job at Six Flags, which I'm semi-excited about, mostly because it'll make bank. School...I've been mentally finished with for a while. Theater of course has been influential and amazing, but I can't seem to find my focus anymore.

I sometimes am a monster. Or a blob. Or some combination. Everything feels like...jello. And I keep trying to get through it, and I do, but its an old movie without sound. It happens, with a very small impact.

Mentally, I'm racing. I've been having more nightmares and vivid dreams. Of rape. Of trying to run and not being able to move my feet. Of trying to defend myself but even with all my strength my arms shake and are seemingly stopped by a force field that surrounds my attacker, preventing me from any attack but a mere tap.

I wonder when things will normalize again.